:/

I can think of only a few things that are more frustrating than not knowing what I want to do with my life when I graduate.
I know what I want to do, but it's the getting there that is the problem.

My dad thinks I should go straight to graduate school. I'd better finish up my education so I can start earning the big bucks after I finish my "fun" time in the PeaceCorps/AmeriCorps/teaching English in a foreign country. So, more school and then go have fun. When I come back I can go straight into working.

My mom just wants me to be happy. Don't get me wrong, my dad wants me to be happy too, but he's also thinking of my future in the much much broader sense. He's thinking about my 401k, my retirement, my long long long term.

Sometimes I get so overwhelmed that I even forget what I want to do with my life.
That's huge. My life. What do I want to do with it? How am I supposed to know? I'm only 21.
Or, I'm already 21. I feel like time is ticking away and I'm just letting it go through my fingers. I'm 21! I need to graduate and get going with my life. But wait. Am I not doing something with my life right now? Am I not making a difference in the lives of teenagers who are failing their classes? Am I not making change right here in Milledgeville even though I feel tied down?



Aaaaah.